Tuesday, November 23, 2010

i was happy

this was me
ehem ehem years ago....
i was a happy child
living with the love of everybody and with the care of my grandparents
always had a 'sibling' rival fights with my youngest uncle
whom i used to call 'gemuk'
and he would also call me names (P&C -of course)

i was happy
maybe that is why i could still remember certain things from my baby moments
mysteriously,
i could remember who took this picture
who was behind the camera
and who made such a hooha effort to make me smile
i wonder how...

i was happy
but why certain things after that i couldnt remember even simple things
why?
did my mind choose what to remember?
or happy thoughts just linger in your mind for as long as you want?
why?

i still remember certain things
things long time ago 
now even things that just happen -what happen? when?
why?

i was happy
i could still remember pranks and jokes i made to grandma, granddad and even great grandma
it was priceless and damn funny!
i was happy

but i could also remember bits and pieces of my teenage years
where i would find solitude and peace surrounded with my beloved cats 
who understood me when i was happy
when i was sad
when i was down
when i felt frustrated
i wonder how cats' minds work?
i think they were happy too

well
i was happy

and now happiness exists in my life
with me loving my husband
loving my kids
they who love me back
unconditionally
despite occasionally they talked back (wont happen if they are cats)
and occasionally they seems lost for awhile
seems a way from you
but not for long
they will know when i was sad
when i was down
when i became frustrated
they just know
even to just be there for me
and i will be happy again

like i was a happy child....

2 comments:

Nuraizah@Yong said...

Sebijik macam Harith.

Be cheerful. Strive to be happy!

ja amran said...

ehehhe...so now we know nape harith cam mat saleh ---cos mak dia mat saleh (uweeekkkk.... hahahah!!!)