i was happy

this was me

ehem ehem years ago....

i was a happy child

living with the love of everybody and with the care of my grandparents

always had a 'sibling' rival fights with my youngest uncle

whom i used to call 'gemuk'

and he would also call me names (P&C -of course)

i was happy

maybe that is why i could still remember certain things from my baby moments

mysteriously,

i could remember who took this picture

who was behind the camera

and who made such a hooha effort to make me smile

i wonder how...

i was happy

but why certain things after that i couldnt remember even simple things

why?

did my mind choose what to remember?

or happy thoughts just linger in your mind for as long as you want?

why?

i still remember certain things

things long time ago 

now even things that just happen -what happen? when?

why?

i was happy

i could still remember pranks and jokes i made to grandma, granddad and even great grandma

it was priceless and damn funny!

i was happy

but i could also remember bits and pieces of my teenage years

where i would find solitude and peace surrounded with my beloved cats 

who understood me when i was happy

when i was sad

when i was down

when i felt frustrated

i wonder how cats' minds work?

i think they were happy too

well

i was happy

and now happiness exists in my life

with me loving my husband

loving my kids

they who love me back

unconditionally

despite occasionally they talked back (wont happen if they are cats)

and occasionally they seems lost for awhile

seems a way from you

but not for long

they will know when i was sad

when i was down

when i became frustrated

they just know

even to just be there for me

and i will be happy again

like i was a happy child....