Wednesday, January 30, 2008


women - they like to do therapy sessions
God has created them to be full of emotions
every month, they have PMS
every pregnancy, high tendency of mood disorders or worse - baby blues
somebody fail them - mood disorder
somebody hurt them - mood disorder
somebody left them - mood disorder
so they have found many ways of therapy sessions

the most famous - SHOPPING! -
can be very costly - especially if you choose venues like KLCC, the Garden, Pavillions, etc. this therapy is good and effective if you have rich husband (must be yours - not someone else's) or you yourself is loaded

another therapy - FOOD! -
can also be very damaging (especially to your waistline, then your wardrobe, then your self esteem, then more mood disorders)

then we also have - SELF PAMPERING -
more ladies know that they deserve a time break and deserve to be pampered (btw, come visit A'CHE SPA for very satisfying treatments... -iklan jap)
this one also need $$$

and there are many others

(all varies depending on your personality and category of stress)

Now, I am quite depressed and in addition to my stress... no $$$ to shop, cant afford to eat (cos already fat), cant go jamming (cos hubby cant make it) except for this blogging!

Tuesday, January 29, 2008


if you have cravings for somethings - the malays call it GIAN.
as at right now, i am really GIAN for songs - hopefully tomorrow raja can book a place for jamming, been a while since the last one.
NO NO - dont worry, i cant play instruments (neither can i sing... hehheh) but still singing tomorrow (if its still on)

new ones

had lunch with arin and zureen at santai in TTDI. later we went to a tudung shop (actually a muslim attire shop) called munawwarah in TTDI as well. bought 4 tudungs.
they design their tudungs and they are very simple, nice and practical. very trendy also. unfortunately, they only have one outlet.

on 1 feb they will have their sale (but not on tudungs... isk isk isk)
but fret not, i will be there...

Sunday, January 27, 2008


Duhai kekasih pujaan hatiku
Dapatkah kau memberiku satu arti
Sedikit rasa yang bisa kumengerti
Bukan sumpah atau janji
Buktikanlah bila kau ada cinta
Setulus hatimu bisa menerima
Sebatas kejujuran yang kau miliki
Bukan sekadar bersama
Jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi cinta
Tinggalkanlah aku
Bila tak mungkin bersama
Jauhi diriku lupakanlah aku
O… Ho… O… Ho…
Jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi suka
Tinggalkanlah aku
Bila tak mungkin bersama
Jauhi diriku lupakanlah aku selamanya
terindah, lagu yg terindah
sengaja aku cipta untukmu yg terindah
semoga dapat meluluhkan segala keraguan
semoga menghancurkan kerasnya batu prasangka
aku takkan melupakanmu
takkan meninggalkanmu
takkan menduakan cintamu
ku bersumpah
aku tak ingin mengingkar janji
tak ingin menjadi duri
tak ingin menjadi api cinta yg membara

well done!

Very talented. Very energetic. Very entertaining. ITU KAMU

MAWI - really enjoying his performance - aku suka lagu tu, very cheeky

JAC VICTOR - i think she's just ok. others are good as well - Misha? Bob? Sahri?

NORA - well done! frankly, all 3 otais were great.

Still wish FAIZAL TAHIR was there... ish ish

p/s: what was it with ct? i thot santa claus lost one of his elves...


Kenapa FAIZAL TAHIR nyer lagu tak menang????!?? Ishhh..... frust... frust...!

Whatever it is, aku still suka giles kat mamat sorang nih... perghhhh

Saturday, January 19, 2008

the nanny diaries - a moving movie...

a great movie... i cried a tear cos it reminds me so much of my son - except that our life is moving towards better (amen!)
due to life circumstances (challenges and requirements), my son spent whole day time with our nanny, or Bibik. so, i tried my best to spend time with my son at nights... after work. i understand, it is not enough.
i even had tough times when my son woke up at night some times asking for bibik. some people may say, "serve me right for not spending enough time with her own son...". but may i say something... not to defend myself but to make people understand -
-that it was really heart wrenching to see your own child put you second
-was really hurt not to be able to be perfect for your child
-was really disturbing when you worked extra hours to provide the best for the child's life, to pay for the nanny but was mistakenly understood as selfish acts...

'know me, then judge me'...
your shoes may not feel the same as mine, they may not even serve the same purpose...

if you don't know much, know me as a mother that wants to provide the best for her child, wants to be a good wife - and wants a life as well (don't we all...)

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

my inspiration

in my life, there are few people that i look up at... they inspire me. they make me want to make better changes. they motivate me. they have special places in me heart...

one of them is my Grandpa - whom I call ABAH.

i was brought up with my grandparents. i was spoilt by my nenek, not my Abah. but Abah firmness and strict rules help me to grow up to be a person.
he did not come from a well to do family. he fell in love with my grandma and married her. thereafter, he supported his family and my grandma's siblings. due to his high motivation to make a change in his life, he left the family in kelantan to go to negeri sembilan... what was he doing there, you might ask - he merantau to learn about construction from a chinese company in N9. nonetheless, he never fail to support his family in kelantan (i think my dad was about 7-8 years old).
after he got enuf knowledge and experience, he returned to kelantan to start a small biz on construction. over hard years, with strong will, motivation, support from family... he is now a class A contractor. well established.
but Abah that i know, never forget where he came from. he is still a humble person but full of dignity and proud. proud of what he has achieved but feels he still has a lot to do.
today, he may not as strong as he was before, but his spirit is still there. and his wife, sons, daughters and the rest of the clan are standing right behind him - supporting him all the way!

Abah, your story will always inspire me...

Monday, January 7, 2008

melepak @ a'che spa with old geng

yesterday, koyong came to unwind herself after spending her energy at her brother's wedding on sunday.
zureen came to complete the company... we had lunch (with side waffles)
catch up with news and gossips but didnt go far cos arin & me had to balik kedai - got customers.
guys, feel free to come again ya!

Friday, January 4, 2008

kawan kami medley

this is our friend, an old good friend... gazza.
he loves to go to low yat plaza - hanging out or scouting for stuff
when he walk, he loves to drag his feet (fast pace but dragging)
one fine day (yesterday), it was raining
to low yat he went and he was walking
a shortcut he chose and he had to jump over
a foot slipped and low yat no more
falling on his head
oh god, it was so sakit
no blood
but BIG bump
to hospital he went
we all waited till the end
the specialist said he is fine
bu tomorrow he will find
one eye will be temporary on 'MC'
due to bump gets bigger, you see
so that is kawan kami
whatever happen, sure kami pergi
to gazza - don't worry
any problem call kami lagi
jaga diri....

for you, hairuzzamil bukhari

bila yg tertulis untukku adalah yang terbaik untuk mu
kan ku jadikan kau kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku
namun takkan mudah bagi ku meninggalkan jejak hidupku
yang telah terukir abadi sebagai kenangan terindah...

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

responsibilty or love?

is it out of responsibility... or out of love?
is there still love in that hidden heart of yours...

being responsible makes you wanna take care... wanna do things that you think you should do
being responsible makes you wanna prioratise things
being responsible makes you treat me like every one else that live in your life
being responsible makes you tired

again - i ask - is there still love?
cos love makes you care
love makes you happy
love makes you creative
love makes you wanna go on
love never makes you tired (even when you are almost losing your sanity)
and you never question why when you are in love

yes, love is selfish... love is blind
love hurts
but, with love comes responsibility
whilst out of responsibility, love will not always follow...

so, are you still in love? give me something

You only stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep
I was meant to tread the water
But now I've gotten in too deep
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away
You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might know my heart
You only waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what they mean
I never thought that I'd love someone
That was someone else's dream
You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might call you from my heart
But it might be a second too late
And the words that I could never say
Are gonna come out anyway
You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might know my heart
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart