end of the day, you will still have the experience and memories....

this is my third pregnancy. and alhamdulillah so far aku never experience any miscarriage or any serious misfortune. cuma mungkin la delivery tu memakan masa berjam2 and the last one really took my whole life to bring harith into this world. dah puas ku teran, and the opening was 10cm tp si kecik ni takmo gak keluar. sampai bervacuum once and still he remained inside my womb. aku rasa dah nak abis nafas meneran, and baby heartbeat pun dah started to slow down --- masa tu doctor pun dah panik attack. emergency operation. so merasa la den ditolak keluar dari labour room ---ne no ne no.....!!! - stret to operation theater. masa tu aku dah separuh nyawa and i could see people looking at me. itu pun aku dah half awake cos too tired and i think i was heavily sedated with the gas(hahahah!!! high le konon)

rupa-rupanya tali pusat terbelit --- huh, takde benda lain nak main agaknya :-p

alhamdulillah...amir harith was safely born.

kes anak pertama?

fuhh... masa tu i consider myself lasak gak. sebab i was working.
ada time i have to do rooftop inspection, siap naik atas water tank lagi tu. perghhh... risau gak kot tiba2 ingat air water tank bocor skali air ketuban aku ---hahahah.... lawak je ok.

ada gak time yang staff aku call 'Madam, we receive a call there is a bomb in the building!"

adoii la...masa aku mengandung la ko nak letak bom dlm bangunan den. hubby agak marah masa tu cos i was heavily pregnant and had to be on site to find out betul ke ada bomb. hoax or not, still it was a dangerous situation. tapi aku berpengalaman tgk polis dtg siap dgn anjing pengesan bom lagi. agak happening la... or lain sibuk nak pi jauh2, aku ngan perut maju ke depan tersengih2 kat main entrance bangunan. nasib baik tipusss belaka.

and the most important is the moment bila anak tu keluar je dari badan aku, aku rasa satu perasaan lega yang amat. mana tak nya, sakit tu tuhan saja yg tahu... rasanya masa tu dah give up nak beranak. tapi bila dah keluar tu, perrghh... ala... sapa pernah sembelit? apa perasaan bila akhirnya berjaya membuang? lega kan?

haa... lebih kurang la. cuma beranak ni sakit dia mmg tak tertanding la.

amir hazeem lahir pun setelah divakum beberapa kali, senget. apo la budak2 ni, duk dlm diam2 pun susah. bila hazeem berjaya keluar, doctor letak atas badan aku. but hazeem made no sound. no sound at all. masa tu peds dah standby kat situ. aku tgk muka peds tu apasal macam takde style specialist je... alahai...

rupa2nya hazeem dah partly lemas dlm perut. after the peds clearly mulut dia semua, then hazeem started to cry... and hubby melaungkan azan utk anak sulung kami tu. mmg moment tu sgt meaningful. but aku rasa masa tu pun aku high on pain killer gas sampaikan aku tak rasa penat or anythg. cuma lega yg tak terhingga. well, hazeem dimasukkan dalam incubator, sian... kecik sangat. and looking at him today make me feel very grateful and very lucky to have him.

ni kali ketiga apa pulak experience agak nya... ehehhe...

hopefully xde lagi acara2 emergency like before. kalau nak diikutkan, i am more compose and calm walaupun kadang2 ada emotional outburst. so i hope anak ni nanti lagi tenang ehehhe... amin amin aminnnn

the big brother  --- ahaks!

the little brother :D