the day creativity dies

aku selalu ter-wonder2 nape aku tak se-creative blog2 omputeh yg aku berkenan... baik dari segi penulisan ataupun arts and craft ataupun baking ideas...

and ada gak a few blog writers yg aku envy cos they can write almost on daily basis on something that always entertain the readers, including me.

come to think of it, aku dulu sangat2 kreatif. bukan nak cong tapi kenyataan (kalau aku tak masuk bakul angkat sendiri sapa lagi nak angkat) ---well, back to the track, aku mendapati aku tidak sekreatif dulu. dulu, i could draw something wonderful dalam masa beberapa jam. sekarang, nak pikir apa nak lukis pun takes me hours, even days, belum start lagi tu.

dulu, aku could just lie on my bed and write pages and pages of novel-like stories. tapi hari tu aku nak start tulis cerpen pun macam bebal je.nak pikir about what to write pun payah, ini kan pula nak pikir how to write....and what's next.

dulu aku leh design my own greeting cards, sekarang aku hanya mampu membeli.

sebab?

sebab nape tak kreatif?

first, aku rasa bila tanggungjawab makin byk, aku ajar diri aku utk berhenti berkhayal. ye la, mana la ada masa. sometimes, i didnt even have time to think about relaxing... masa nak berpikir cuma byk skit iaitu masa berak (excuse my french)

then, i stop dreaming bila most of my dreams mati ditengah jalan. so why dream another one?

and aku notice, dulu2 masa kecik aku selalu berangan main sorok2 ke, main perang2 ke, masak2 ke... make believe out of anything and sometimes ---nothing! and still i had great times. those were times of my creativity.

now, aku perasan, if anak aku baru nak pegang selimut nak buat khemah --- 'aipppp, nak buat apa tu??! jangan sepah2!!!' terkubur....

baru kawan tu kutip cawan2 plastik nak buat twin tower --- 'ha hah, tu nak buat apa tu?! mama penat la nak kemas... letak balik!' hancus

last2 kawan tu tgk katun je. mcmana nak kreatif???

and aku tgk, dlm tv, omputeh slalu buat kan khemah from selimut utk anak2 depa, siap ada gantung bintang bulan semua. ada lampu la... bantal tilam selimut dll. actually, that is their world. a world separated from those dream killers...a place where no reality could actually hurts. and we adults selalu nak tarik budak2 ni ke dunia kita. which we forget, it is their time. if kita dah lapuk and tak kreatif, nape kita nak diorg jadi gitu gak... aku pun tak tahu.

mebi sebab kita penat... and the struggle to face a new day is sometimes very hard. but i also learn that when you start to count your blessing, is will be easy. and bila it becomes easier, hati jadi tenang hence creativity will start blossoming.



.... i hope :-)