you will know

you will know when your child is growing up

as a mother, you will notice changes you child will show bila dia dah ready to grow up.
the responsibilty...
the caring...
the ownership...
the independence...
whatever it is, bukan semua budak sama, thus as a mom, you will know.

semalam anak jantan sulung aku tak nak tidur depan tv like he used to every night. dia kata susah nak lelap kan mata. bising etc...
takut aku marah, he quietly went to his father and asked permission to sleep in our bedroom. on normal nights, bilik tidur kitorg tu laksana bilik stim, bilik sauna atau apa2 saje yang sewaktu dengannya. tapi alhamdulillah malam tadi it was cooler. so, he went up all by himself, settle kan apa2 yang patut dlm bilik air dan tak sampai 15minit he dozed off easily.

when i took a peek into the bedroom, nampak la dia nyenyak tidur and he look so much older to me...'dah besar anak aku ni..'

due to financial constraint, but i hope we were able to overcome it by this year, i hope we will get our own place. so hazeem and harith will have their own bedrooms, their own study corner, their own play area...
and the new baby (6mths to come) will also get his/her special place with the big brothers :D insyaAllah...

so, perhati2 kan...it doesnt take long when your child wont be needing you to hold their hands, wont be needing you to read out story books and it sure wont be long when they dont need your assistant anymore no matter how much you wanted to.

and aku selalu tegur husband aku, if dia marah2 budak2 ni easily cos too tired after a day at work ... 'they just miss you since you were missing the whole day. and now they want to spend all their best time with you and the best you could do was to scold them for their intentions? just spare the balance of your patience with the ones who love you and been waiting for you to be home...soon they dont care anymore, and that will be the day when you want to give but a little too late' ---alhamdulillah so far,he understands. tapi of cos la, being human ada gak time marah kan :D

so...you will know (wink wink....)