semalam aku happy, hari ni agak down...

semalam dan malam kelmarin aku SANGAT happy ---walaupun my husband was sooo not! ehehhe... siapa sangka kelantan red warriors leh menang after berkurun lama takmenang2. and yang paling best last year kalah ngan n9 but this year menang!

result 2-1 cukup memuaskan. first half memang aku frust dan rasa mulut ni nak carut2 je tgk game yg ntah apo ko bondo la. memang team N9 mantop, game yang kemas. control cukup bagus, esp from Aidil.

masuk 2nd half, aku rasa coach kelantan telah memaki hamun players cukup2 masa break sebab corak game pun sudah bertukar...more in control. (mana la coach tak bengang, mamat tu dah la ada hukuman gantung servis -bukan gantung diri- utk kesalahan bila aku tak sure,so bila player main cam budak baru dapat bola, baik la dia kena suspend je)
lepas tu lak si Aidil injured. perghhh...terus jadik lain macam. aku tak sure team N9 ni kurang yakin tanpa Aidil or sebab takde org leh follow Hai-O macam Aidil. tapi kelantan lepas tu main attack je. cukup puas hati. dua2 gol mantap. cun.

tatkala 2nd half tu,suami ku dah jadik lain macam (hahhahaha!!!).
sorry bang, tak berniat nak melonjak excited tatkala bola menerobos dalam gol tapi ja tak dapek nak menahan excitement tu. ehehhee...

dan aku juga bangga dengan support penonton yang meng-concur more than half of the stadium... bangga weh...

 courtesy of

itu kes semalam. pagi aku sangat excited. siap bangun pepagi carik newspaper. tapi newspaper lak lambat. aik? mamak suratkhabar ni layan kelantan ke semalam? 3-4 kedai aku pergi semua kata paper lambat hari tu. aikkk???

jadi, nape aku sedih hari ni?

ni gara2 history channel semalam. jam 9malam.
documentary pasal Allahyarham Tan Sri P Ramlee.

memula all the stories berkisar pasal his success di Studio Jln Ampas. everything he worked on turn to gold. he got a magic touch. pendek kata memang allahyarham seorang yang gifted. dah la tu baikhati lak.

lepas tu he had to move to Merdeka Studio, which is in KL. masa tu la turning point of his life. saat kejatuhan dia. seperti biasa, di Malaysia, most equipment are of inferior quality as compared to Singapore. exprience pun far lacking. so, no matter how creative you are, if you got no appropriate resources, hasilnya akan jadi tak seberapa.

people started to label him as a has been. org mula reject his ideas. he started to lose friends (actually, kalau time susah kawan bailed out ---ni bukan kawan namanya, setan). memang hidup dia sangat susah. his real friends mostly ada kat singapore lagi. aziz, sudin, etc...

tapi, aku nampak maybe hikmahnya, Allah sayangkan dia, so kesusahan yang allahyarham lalui mungkin untuk menebus dosa2 lampau. you'll never know. he has a very good heart, but maybe part lain dia agak kurang, sebab time2 tu pun memang rata2 orang macam tu, mostly. so, Allah lagi sayangkan dia.

so, it was quite a depressing documentary.

takpe, i will pick up my mood later --- ehehheh...

hazeem nya kerja

ini hasil tangan amir hazeem bermain Paint dlm laptop ku.

apa ni?
ini askar pergi berperang. askar desert...sebab tu kaler brownish... yg kereta kebal depan tu aku tak sure nape biru.

kenapa laaaa jadik skali lagi???

sekali lagi??

tahun ni pun sama gak??

jangan la result pun sama cam last year...aku tak sanggup melihat kegembiraan terserlah diwajah suami ku dan kerabat2nya... aku tak sanggup melihat orang ramai2 mengamuk tak tentu pasal sebab duit dah banyak abis.

dan yang paling mustahak, aku tak sanggup setelah abis air liur menyanyi Gomo Kelate Gomo sekali memang kelate hok keno gomo!!!

aku tak sangguppppp....!!!!

                         VS


               Sabtu ni, malam ya....

Autism and Us

Most of us are blessed with healthy kids. And as parents, it is our job to choose how to raise our kids rightfully. And as a Muslim, we have so many guides to followthru, examples to take and of course, kita kena ajar halal haram etc.

Sometimes, kita mengeluh penat bila anak kita is not like other kids --- throwing tantrums la, attitude problems la... well, sometimes it is normal for kids to show some behaviour, as long as it is acceptable cos kids will always be kids. we dont expect them to be adults, kan?

Ada jugak very few of my friends yang ada anak with Autism and ADHD or yang related. To me, kawan2 aku ni memang wajar diberi pengiktirafan cos they have what it takes to be a Great Mom!

An old friend from ALevel, ada nak with autism and she handles it positively. and what's greater about it? she is educating others about Autism.

No doubt, for those yang tak tau apa2, sometimes kita nampak nape la budak tu dah besar tapi duk mengamuk2 kat tempat public? sometimes we blame the parents. but ada yang tak tau, some of these cases could be due to autism.

so, let us be more aware of this situation. we may not be facing with autism issues now, but we would never know and it is not wrong to give a hand to others who need it. or atleast be understanding when you face with a situation where it needs your understanding. sometimes, just to be understanding is just what takes... :-)

Thanks Syida for this awareness and knowledge. our prayers are always with you... and we salute for being such a great person.


What is autism?

semalam aku buat kek

semalam ada org nak amik kek dia tempah sebab dia dah berkenan sgt ngan kek cokelat aku tuh...
aku dah lama tak wat tempahan kek sebabnya si kecik Harith ni suka sgt 'menolong' tatkala aku busy membuat kek...di mana di masa yang sama dia jugak akan nak berdukung, tak mo tido, nak main, nak naik turun tangga dan macam2 lagi benda pekerjaan di luar scope membuat kek yang mencabar kesabaran dan ketahanan fizikal dan mental.

jadik semalam aku buat kek.

to keep the cake fresh, aku masak kek petang semalam. and deco was quite simple. semua aku prepare semalam, shopping barang pun pagi tuh.

so, bila semua siap, aku mengalami kerosakan sana sini ----hahahahaa...

belakang ku sakit
pinggang ku ya rabbi!
perut aku pun join skali cramp...

dan biasa la, bila kelamkabut gitu, aku x lalu makan sgt (i repeat...SGT), tapi aku stil makan :D
maka perut mainkan lagu2 keroncong laksana kenduri kawen. terasa nak makan hotdog, hotdog xde. nak gi beli?tobat malas....

sodap la plak aii....

bangun td semua kesiangan... sakit nya pinggang den
hazeem pun bangun lmbt, merengek xnak sekolah...aku malas nk layan, sukahati ko la, nakkkk...
tapi lepas mandi buat skit latihan jawi (ini utk mengurangkan rasa bersalah aku kasik dia cuti). asyik main game je....

walau apa2pun, aku puas dengan hasil kek and i hope yang beli tu pun suka. selamat bertunang ya...

preggers...apa nak buat if sentiasa lapar

apalagi... makan je la :D

ehehhe...aku ni kira ada time yang sentiasa lapar, and yang sakit jiwa tu kadang2 bila makan takmo lak makan banyak2. makan sikit dah macam kenyang.

so, in my case, aku dah 14-15 minggu pregnant, and i always feel hungry regardless time. and at this stage, i just need extra 300 or so extra calories. jadik, aku takleh la melantak as if perut ada 4 bilik!

eheheh...tips aku dapat hari ni, is to stock up my fridge with healthy snacks (ini kalau MIL aku baca mesti dia suka sebab dia rasa aku an unhealthy eater wakakakaa!!!) ---apa healthy snacks?

replacing white bread or white rice to whole grain bread or brown rice. or snack on fresh fruits (bukan jeruk cam aku skrg) or crackers with cheese or anything as close to their natural state as possible. air pun harus banyak esp bila asyik ke tandas.. do the math...banyak kuar so kena la banyak ganti :-p

cooking momster

where do i get this info? click sini....very informative :)

the rest of our story

dah penat meround tg benoa, we were brought to one of their old temples, Uluwatu. Bukan nama butik aaa...ini nama tempat pastu kat situ ada temple atas bukit, right by the cliff!

sapa penah tgk Jungle Book, Walt Disney? mesti kenal King Louie...ehehhe...tu orang utan. kat temple ni, monyet berleluasa. and if you are not careful enough...i really mean Carefullllll... sekelip mata diog leh sambar sunglasses ke, topi ke, kamera ke...apatah lagi makanan or air. why they do that? sebab nanti diorg nak trade hasil rampasan ni dengan buah2an or air botol or anythg yang boleh dimakan. pastu takmo skit....mesti nak sepeket or sebotol. no food no talk. dia siap peragakan lagi spek2 tu kat muka masing2. gelabah la jugak...sebab masa kitorg kat sana ada la 2-3 round org bertempik sebab monyet2 ni mengepau! hahahha...

 we were right by the cliff....but the view was breathtaking... subhanallah...memang cantik...

 ini lah guide kami, pak suka... hazeem memang suka pada pak suka ni...harith pula tidak begitu suka, kesian pak suka ----ehehhehe...

 have a break, have a kutu!

 swimming pool utk kerabat2 King Louie ni... siap bergaduh tu nak spot best... ada lak tali utk swing...

 hazeem nak ke belakang lagi...aku dah berdiri bulu roma...serammm tengok la cliff tu, memang streeeeet ke bawah...takde maaf.

 lepas tu if ikut itinery, sepatutnya ada coffee factory visit. so apa korang paham?? pegi coffee factory tgk camne org buat kopi? betul?
salah!!! ekkkkk....!!
sesampainya kami di kilan kopi, kami dibawa ke satu bilik operasi..hahahha...
kami dihidangkan dengan kopi panas dan kopi sejuk. memang marbeles. masa ni baru aku tahu ada kopi jantan and kopi betina.

ada jugak kopi luwak. haaa...ini mcm citer bucket list. morgan freeman ngan jack nicholson. kopi luwak ni can only get in sumatera, jawa, bali and sulawesi. it is the most expensive coffee in the world. bukan kopi biasa... sejenis musang suka makan sejenis beri ni. lepas tu bila dia berak org akan amik hasil berak tadi (this is a sopan way of saying tahi musang) and keringkan and proses jadi kopi. org cakap rasa dia lagi sedap and bau lagi harum ---kelakar? to you maybe but it is expensive, rm400 lebih sepeket...hilang akal.... minum kopi berak musang sampai empat ratus....

nak tau more....? go to here....

so balik kepada coffee factory visit tu, rupa2nya dia nak jual kopi je. bukan tour factory pun...chetttt...ini perangkap namanya...

 sunset dinner di Jimbaran.

 nex day, kami meronda carik ole2 bali di Legian and Kuta.

 dah puas meronda, lapar la kan.... stop jap tepi Kuta Beach merasa rojak buah ni. Rp5000. cicah dia sangat la sedapppp....

most of the pictures were taken by Amir Hazeem....

 Kuta Beach ni known for surfers... memang sana sini ada surf boards and time berangin kencang you can see surfer dudes. cam kat hawaii lak. tapi bila tgk org meniaga nampak la balik suasana indon hahahha...

 singgah makan bakso, buk...

 mesti tak lengkap kalau tak try Frestea. dulu kat Bandung banyak TehBotol. ni Bali ada Frestea, rasa cam sama je...sama sedap!

 ini last day di hotel. duit dah byk abis. so lepak hotel je la...

btw, nak balik nanti ada airport tax, sorang dalam Rp150000. harith takde seat kapalterbang so takde tax.

 cubaan hazeem menjadi ikan paus.... ke dugong???

bye bye Bali....

day 2

continuing from Tg Benoa....

our glass bottom ride was good. the water was veryyyyy clear, memang nampak rumput rumpai kat dasar tu. it was quite surprising cos with that many boats and skijets etc...the water is still clear. the stop halfway kasik ikan2 makan roti. and ikan memang banyak pastu macam tak cukup2 diorg makan roti keras tu... :D

 dah sampai Turtle Farm Island. this is a place diorg menternak penyu. penyu kat sini was threaten to extinct last time sebab diorg ni makan daging penyu...dah la susah penyu2 ni nak membesarkan anak2 diorg, dah besar puak2 ni tangkap lak wat sate... hahaaha (ehemmm...) but now, takde dah. semua dah mesra alam.

 hazeem bersama2 penyu2 yang dah berumur. masuk dalam kolam tu, suapkan la seaweed dlm mulut dia. jgn dekat sgt takut kena NGAP!

 apa ni?

 ketams.... tu still hazeem bersama binatang buas (hahahah)

 hazeem dgn ular. ular ni belum jinak. if pegi close up, leh nampak diorg selotep mulut ular tu, sibuk tul dia nak sua kan lidah dia kat org. aku tobat la geliiiii....

 helang pun ada....

 dah penat bantai lak air kelapa. dalam Rp5,000. mahal gak.diorg ingat kami ni bawak duit pound sterling kot... tp haus nya pasal pastu sodap lak air kelapa fresh ni. nak balik tu kena 'derma' kat tabung conservation diorg, dlm Rp5000 sorg rasanya. jgn lupa 'derma' kat guide dia skali.
sini budaya tips tu penting sbb gaji diorg skit, so nak tak nak kena la 'derma'...

 nampak benda terbang tu?? itu flying fish... bukan real fish tapi cam boat angin ko duk dalam tu, boat laju tu tarik and voila! up up and awaaaaaayyyy!!! --- aku nak sangat try...

 tu....hujung tu....nama dia parasailing. aku dah try this one masa kat penang. Fuh!!! memang adrenalin rush! Best...!

 harith getting ready to jump off....

 too many jetski....tu yang tersadai je ni...

 lepas bersukan, kita makan. ini nasi padang, lupa nak amik gambar awal2 sebab lapo sgt...

 ini gulai otak. aku kecik2 dulu suka. skrg cam urghhhh... mebi pregnant kot..

Alhamdulillah...kenyang and sleepy. leh tido dalam kereta berhantu hahhahah....


till then... lepas ni uluwatu temple guarded by monkeys. macam citer Jungle Book King Louie :D

arrival day

the flight took about almost 3hours from KLIA to Denpasar, Bali. We were on MAS, the food was marbelessss.... how marvelous? well... i ordered beef lasagna and on my plate were:  hot beef lasagna, a packet of 3 ferrero rocher, a slice of fruit cake, mineral water and a cup of orange juice. menarik? cukup menarik buat aku.

so, since food was plenty, plus stewardess tu kasik lak extra ferrero rocher, so kami berjaya mentapau kekbuah and cekelat utk bekal di Bali.


sampai kat airport, alhamdulillah xde hal with kastam sumer...so jumpa our tour guide holding a placard saying 'Mr Hairuzzamil - KOPETRO'
and our transportation was a suzuki MPV. sana aku xde nampak proton. banyak Suzuki...mebi dia ada kontrak ngan suzuki kot...

 we stayed at Aston at Grand Kuta Hotel and Residences - sort of service apartment. a bit far from the Kuta Beach. memula patutnya booking Harris Hotel right infront of Kuta Beach. last minute Kopetro, our travel agent called kata hotel terpaksa relocate sebab Harris fully booked sebab amik a big group ada course amende ntah. tu yang dapat Aston tu. but they compensated with a bigger room.

Aston apartment tu still new, sosemua nya nampak bagusss...

 ni, single room...patutnya hazeem tidur sini but he was too afraid so end up, laki aku la lepak sini.

 this is the living area. ada TV with so many international channels. astro ada gak.

 ini master bedroom with a king size bed. ada TV gak lagi satu. so bilik ni jadi bilik permainan hazeem yang berangan pakai sweater askar dia and duduk dalam selimut sambil menengok TV - ala ala orang kaya berholiday gitu...

in the room ada gak kitchen area and a bathroom - of course bathroom ni takde bathtub. sapa nak berendam sila ke swimming pool di bawah --- ada 3 swimming pool! so take your pick. unfortunately takde kids' pool.

 harith melepak tepi one of the pool. the pools were nicely designed.  nasib baik aku xleh melepak sambil berbikini ----   ahaks... but that doesnt stop others from wearing bikini regardless sizes, shapes or age...ngengenge...

for the rest of the day, we just had a quick tour around Kuta Beach. so dapat la tengok their night life. I was here before - on my own - so kali ni bila bawak kids, rasa mcm movement tu limited skit. and of course, kena control jugak on places we chose to go. takleh main bantai je bawak anak gi Hard Rock ke... any form of night life entertainment -- winkwink**

Our second day was already included in the package.
Memula skali, we went for water sport activities at tg benoa. ingat kan nak naik glass bottom boat dah include, rupa2nya belum. we actually had to choose a water sport and then nego on the price la. so, we chose glass bottom boat and turtle farm island. selepas  nego, we paid  rp600,000. quite expensive to us but considering  first time  experience for the kids and boat tu kami je, takde share2...so kira orait la.

ini la dia..... glass bottom boat. kat beach ni memang concentrate on water sports, ada jetski, parasailing, banana boat, diving, snorkelling etc. so, it is not a good beach to just terbaring rilek2. cos everybody was busy ber-water sport. and most activities are charged in USD. so be careful on what price you agreed.
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got to pen off now, sebab cerita tg benoa ni byk gambar. kasik cheq 'modify' gambar2 tu dulu...

so till then... :D

am back

already back in malaysia. tgh upload gambar and will update on stories about our adventurous Bali trip ---fun and tiring :D

lepas tu, harith sambuung lak duk hotel lain kat KL iaitu Prince Court tapi bukan hotel...spital... huhuhu...nanti gue cerita kan ...laterrr

tutup sementara

tq

Ya Allah, berkati perjalanan kami pergi dan balik...amin...

YEEEHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

you will know

you will know when your child is growing up

as a mother, you will notice changes you child will show bila dia dah ready to grow up.
the responsibilty...
the caring...
the ownership...
the independence...
whatever it is, bukan semua budak sama, thus as a mom, you will know.

semalam anak jantan sulung aku tak nak tidur depan tv like he used to every night. dia kata susah nak lelap kan mata. bising etc...
takut aku marah, he quietly went to his father and asked permission to sleep in our bedroom. on normal nights, bilik tidur kitorg tu laksana bilik stim, bilik sauna atau apa2 saje yang sewaktu dengannya. tapi alhamdulillah malam tadi it was cooler. so, he went up all by himself, settle kan apa2 yang patut dlm bilik air dan tak sampai 15minit he dozed off easily.

when i took a peek into the bedroom, nampak la dia nyenyak tidur and he look so much older to me...'dah besar anak aku ni..'

due to financial constraint, but i hope we were able to overcome it by this year, i hope we will get our own place. so hazeem and harith will have their own bedrooms, their own study corner, their own play area...
and the new baby (6mths to come) will also get his/her special place with the big brothers :D insyaAllah...

so, perhati2 kan...it doesnt take long when your child wont be needing you to hold their hands, wont be needing you to read out story books and it sure wont be long when they dont need your assistant anymore no matter how much you wanted to.

and aku selalu tegur husband aku, if dia marah2 budak2 ni easily cos too tired after a day at work ... 'they just miss you since you were missing the whole day. and now they want to spend all their best time with you and the best you could do was to scold them for their intentions? just spare the balance of your patience with the ones who love you and been waiting for you to be home...soon they dont care anymore, and that will be the day when you want to give but a little too late' ---alhamdulillah so far,he understands. tapi of cos la, being human ada gak time marah kan :D

so...you will know (wink wink....)

perasaan bila orang 'mencari' Islam

yesterday, a close friend of mine, Liza, and her family visited us ---ada hal skit sambil2 tu--- and she was telling me how she adores Maher Zain and been googling him and watching any video clip she could find on him. and she also told me about an Aussie who 'found' Islam and when i watched his movie it was really touching.

of course, he was really good at his jokes on how he was searching for the right religion but bila sampai masa dia study pasal Islam, dia kagum sebab setiap soalan he asked semua jawapan ada dalam AlQuran. and when he asked Allah to give him a sign, atleast, to convince him to leap into Islam ---ini korang kena dengar sendiri ---

and aku kagum, orang yang baru memeluk Islam, mulutnya tak pernah lupa menyebut 'Subhanallah' 'Mashaallah'...
kita yang dilahirkan Islam, agak gersang perkataan2 sebegini dalam percakapan harian kita ---something to ponder :D

just a brief story camne dia mendapat petunjuk dari Allah --- he was reading thru the Quran then he stopped halfway. masa tu dia prepare himself siap pasang lilin satu, bukak tingkap, kononnya nak keadaan full spiritual eheheh... so, dia berkata, Allah, I am ready to leap into Islam, please give me some sign.a bolt of lightning ke, gunung tiba2 runtuh ke (ehehe...) then he waited and subhanallah ---absolutely nothing.
he did a few times, and nothing happened.

so dia baca balik Quran yang dia stop tadi, dan Allah itu memang Maha Besar, the next verse yang dia baca after he stopped earlier says something like --- tak cukup lagi ke petanda yang Aku dah berikan, ada nya bulan bintang dan segala kejadian ---

Liza kata menitis airmata dia tatkala dia dgr that Aussie cerita that part, and aku pun berreaksi yang sama... memang Subhanallah...

i am happy, i'm so happy....

GOOD MORNIIIINGGG YA'ALLS.........................!!!

i know it is Monday. i know it sucks to some of you. but today, I feel GRRRREATTT!

why?

well, many reasons.

our holiday trip is just around the corner and we got almost everything covered.

err...i woke up today - alive & kicking (well, wasnt exactly kicking cos my preggie back pain kinda hold me back --but what the heck)

and Allah is great. truth has been lurking around the corner for me (for this particular issue) and i have since let it go cos why bother with maniacs? what is haram will always be haram --- takde matlamat yang boleh menghalalkan whatever cara ko duk rationalised for yourself. halal is halal and haram is haram. simply. and last weekend, tanpa effort aku pun, the truth reveals. and i know there's nothing i can expect out of it (sebab dealing with insanity or maniacs...ala.macam bercakap ngan monyet kot) but i know the truth finally prevails.
and again... i am at peace. alhamdulillah....

so... tetiba aku teringat lagu adam sandler, couldnt remember which movie...

      i am happy... i'm so happy.... (oooo...anger management tu... :D)

have a nice day!!!! and a good weekend ahead.... (nak beli nasik lemak jap)

tersepit

antara keadaan yang aku tak suka and wish to really avoid in my life is... tersepit. apa yang tersepit?

aha...mungkin ada yang dah ada gambaran apa yang tersepit. tapi aku nye tersepit ni me-refer kepada keadaan 'ditelan mati emak diluah mati bapak' (korang bygkan apa yang tersepit? eheheh...)

situasi aku sekarang sangat menyusahkan aku. tapi aku takleh ignore sebab melibatkan family, it is a family matter, an issue really close to the heart. what makes it worse? aku takleh nak share dengan orang lain, even family member yang lain.

have you ever been in this 'shitty' situation? pardon my french, but it is a shitty situation. for a person who detest conflicts, aku mmg tak suka keadaan ini.

sebab, nak decide bukan senang. and kena lak jaga hati semua orang sebabnya semua aku sayang. and kadang2 bila nak bercakap pun i have to carefully choose the right words. salah perkataan could cause different meaning, sebab orang dalam masalah ni selalunya cepat sensitive. itu aku sangat2 tau...

apa aku nak buat?

in this situation, hanya Allah lebih mengetahui apa yang terbaik. kadang2 setiap masalah tu kita tak boleh nak cari salah orang lain just to sedapkan hati sendiri...sedangkan at the same time banyak sangat musibah yang Allah uji ke atas kita. tapi, how to tell this to a person? how to choose the words? how to paint the right picture?

sometimes, truth IS ugly. truth IS hurtful...

well, welcome to the jungle, baby......arrrghhhhhhhhhhh!!!

perubahan drastik

kadang2 nak je buat perubahan drastik kepada diri sendiri....

tukar penampilan diri agar lebih 'tenang'...tapi takut lak terkejut. ehehhee...

skrg pun cukup tenang cuma kadang2 tu ada gak time tak tenang bila ada situasi2 yg menyebabkan wardrobe malfunction. apa yg aku merepek? wardrobe malfunction? ---alaaa biasa berlaku tatkala badan ni tidak la cellulite-free or spare tyre-free tapi bila wardrobe bermasalah maka emosi kita jadi tak tenang. haa...gitu.

paham?

ok, gini cakap la. ada jugak terdetik dihati utk berjubah or ada gak yg jubah with pants. aku tgk if kena gaya, masih ada gaya. ada pahala. tapi itu full transformation, ready ke aku?

or boleh dibuat selo2... ??

apa nak buek...

minggu lepas was a tiring weekend for me, mentally, physically and emotionally.

but it wasnt all bad, there were good things and bad things - normal life la kan.

sampai hari ni aku still rasa kepenatan sebab isu nya belum selesai.

among which, mak aku suruh aku venture into something which is highly profitable tapi aku tak minat, plus aku tak cukup modal. tapi background aku maybe will give me an advantage tapi still aku doubtful sebab aku tak minat. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....!!!

tu la, masa kecik2 dulu aku nak jadi arkitek dia cakap toksah. if aku amik architecture dulu dah tentu i am making big bucks in interior design.

tapi mana la tau benda yang dia suh aku wat tu could do me greater good. lagipun orang cakap mulut mak ni doa. esp mulut mak aku (yong, do u still remember??hahahah) -mulut mak aku ntah macam mana sentiasa masin je... bukan rasa masin, alah...korang paham kan?

so, apo nak buekkkkk niiii?????

duit den nak, tapi den takut.....!!!