bushah is another year older

happy birthday to my sista, bushah

may allah bless you in every way, dunia dan akhirat...amin

countdown

without much self-realisation, we are 2 days towards 2010 (and 2 years before 2012 -muahahahhaha!!!!)


hmm... new resolutions?
- lessen my coffee? nah...
- healthier diet... will surely try that
- lesser weight? why not.
- more $? WHY NOT...
- stop daydreaming? crap! without daydreaming, we wouldnt be having TV or aeroplanes or a gadget that i dont even understand like iPhone

my actual new year resolutions?
people say action first, brag later - anyway...just please, pray for a good year for me & family :D


and dont stop believing in yourself :-)

All I Ask of You -phantom of the opera

RAOUL
No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears
I'm here, nothing can harm you
my words will warm and calm you
Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you...

CHRISTINE
Say you love me every waking moment,
turn my head with talk of summertime...
Say you need me with you now and always...
Promise me that all you say is true
that's all I ask of you

RAOUL
Let me be your shelter
let me be your light
You're safe, No one will find you
your fears are far behind you...

CHRISTINE
All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night
and you, always beside me, to hold me and to hide me...

RAOUL
Then say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime
let me lead you from your solitude
Say you need me with you here, beside you...
anywhere you go, let me go too
Christine, that's all I ask of you...

CHRISTINE
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime...
say the word and I will follow you...
Share each day with me,
each night, each morning...
Say you love me...

RAOUL
You know I do...

BOTH
Love me - that's all I ask of you
Anywhere you go let me go too
Love me - that's all I ask of you...

thx stlyrics

Le Fantôme de l'Opéra

i love this movie, never been to the broadway show (tho thought of it when i went to london last few years).

i looooove the songs, esp.

the phantom of the opera.

The Phantom of the Opera (original title: Le Fantôme de l'Opéra) is a novel by French writer Gaston Leroux. It was first published as a serialization in Le Gaulois from November 19, 1909 to January 8, 1910. Initially, the story sold very poorly upon publication in book form and was even out of print several times during the twentieth century, despite the success of its various film and stage adaptations. The most notable of these were the 1925 film depiction and Andrew Lloyd Webber's 1986 musical. The Phantom of the OperaBroadway show in history, and one of the most lucrative entertainment enterprises of all time

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in 2004, it was made into a hollywood movie, that i went to watch -alone- while i was a few days before giving birth to amir hazeem. the movie was awesome (apart from the fact that i sat next to a couple of old ladies enjoying and 'commenting' on almost every scene...errr, am i one of them??? nahhh)

link

loving Gerard Butler & Emmy Rossum!

aura or plain confidence?

do u ever realised when we walk in a crowd, sometimes our eyes will automatically caught on a person, and most of the times that person is a very attractive man or woman?

say a woman...
the way she walks, she holds her head high
the way she dresses, she dresses in style
and her face somehow shines above the rest of the crowd
(dont get me wrong, sometimes this person can -to a certain degree- portray vanity)
but still, these kind of people attract us the most

why?

high level of aura?

or is it because of self confidence?

tapi kadang2 ada jugak yg menarik perhatian sebab dia antara yg tak senonoh dlm ramai2 tu :D

so, which one is you? ehehehh

happy birthday, my beloved amir hazeem!

he was born 5 years ago.
in ampang putri.
i was induced. and he was vacumed. he first saw the world, unable to cry a single sound... because he was choking. the peads did a great job and after few seconds, i heard his first cry. it was a very meaningful moment for my husband and i.


today amir hazeem is 5 years old and he is everything to us.

he thought us the meaning of being a parents,
the importance of appreciating each others,
and the purpose life brings.


my beloved amir hazeem,

happy birthday and may allah bless you in this world and akhirat. may allah bless you with great health, brilliant mind and abundance wealth, not to forget may allah completes you with humble, sensitivity, respect and all good manners especially tahap keimanan yang tinggi... amin...

hari tu aku diet

last 2 weeks i started my diet - which aku tabur je mendietkan diri.

satu sebab, aku kena gi dinner laki aku

dua sebabnya, member aku yg slim kena sound ngan doktor suruh dia jaga makan... errr what about me who is 'slimmer'???

so, aku amik keputusan utk start ber-diet.

aku duk la makan oat for either dinner or lunch, tapi atleast a serving of oat mesti ada dlm sehari.
i lost weight. in a week. i didnt know how much but people has been saying i lost weight.

tapi, cukup seminggu, aku muak, jgn sebut nama quaker oats!

jadi, macam mana nak diet ni?????

ceramah lagi...

ini aku dah dgr lama tapi aku lupa nak zahirkan dlm blog aku ni

ceramah tu aku dgr dlm radio masa raya haji and masa dgr ceramah tu, airmata aku menitik... bukan sikit tapi deras gak la... and aku tak tau laki aku perasan ke tak, tapi yg nyata nya anak2 aku dah lelap dlm kereta.

tajuk ceramah tu aku tak tahu sebab aku dgr dah halfway eheheh tapi talk tu lebih kepada pengalaman seorg perempuan tu dapat tugasan sebagai the only lady photographer (kalau tak silap, the only photographer) yg ditugaskan mengambil gambar musim haji dimekah.

mostly dia cerita pasal pengalaman dia dari segi teknikal, tapi yg mengusik hati aku bila ayat dia ada sebut... hanya orang yang DIJEMPUT Allah sahaja yg dapat menunaikan haji dengan sempurna...

aku tanya laki aku, apa lak maksud tu? aku tgk ada gak org wat haji gedebuk gedebak tapi balik hancur gak... (nauzubillah)

laki aku cakap la, itu maknanya dia tak dijemput, hati belum terbuka. maklumlah, hidayah Allah ni utk org2 terpilih shj. korang tak tau betapa terusik aku dgr ayat tu. almaklumlah, aku ni pun kira kategori tak lengkap lagi dlmm ibadah...and aku ter-wonder2, adakah aku akan tergolong dlm org2 dijemput? adakah aku bertuah utk mendapat hidayah?

ada gak org2 yg aku tgk bercerita pasal agama bagai nak rak, tapi perangai tak serupa bikin. ada yg sembahyang cukup tapi kaki menipu. ada yg pegi masjid tapi mengumpat. nauzubillah... aku terpikir aku ni golongan mana?

laki aku cakap lagi, tuhan punya ujian lak macam2. ada tu perangai macam setan tapi tuhan bagi jugak rezeki kat dia. ada tu, tabiat nak menasihatkan org tapi tak sedar pun dia sama je. macam2 la... tapi yg penting kita berbaik sesama manusia, kita ingat dosa pahala and kita yakin Allah dah janji balasannya.

lepas tu, perempuan tu cakap lagi, kadang2 kita ni nak marah anak kita perangai tak senonoh. yg sepatutnya kita telek diri kita dulu, apa dosa kita sampai anak kita berperangai sedemikian. ada ke kita kasi anak kita makan duit haram? ada ke dosa2 kita dulu yg kita lupa nak bertaubat? ada ke kita duk wat naya kat org? semua tu Allah dah janji balasannya... and if anak kita buat perangai, kita doakan anak kita ke arah kebaikan dan semoga allah mengampunkan dosa2 kita, sekiranya ada yg kita tak sedar.

apa yg buatkan aku menitis airmata?

aku takut.

aku tau aku tak sempurna. and byk yg aku tak cukup.

dan aku berdoa semoga allah memberi hidayah kepada aku sekeluarga. semoga aku nampak if aku ada silap kat mana2 sebab aku nampak ada org keliling aku yang buat peel tapi tak sedar diri pun... nauzubillah, jgn la aku sekeluarga jadi cenggitu.

dan aku perasan, bila dtg keinsafan dlm diri aku, aku rasa tenang... aku boleh beribadat lebih lagi. lebih lengkap. dan aku lebih tenang. aku tak kisah pun apa org nak buat kat aku sebab aku yakin Allah Maha Berkuasa.

dan aku berdoa, moga2 aku mendapat hidayahNya. begitu juga dgn anak2 aku, dan suami ku dan keluarga ku.

amin...

muscle spasm

last friday was one of the many friday offs of this month.

i had plans.

i had MANY wonderful great plans - one of which to spring clean the house and IKEA shopping with hubby and kids.

kita hanya merancang - Allah yg menentukan... huhuhuuu...

jatuh tepat pada hari jumaat petang, maka aku pun mendapat satu sakit yang amat iaitu lower back muscle spasm!
masyaAllah!!! sakit nya teramat la

apo bondo tuh?

What is a muscle spasm?

A muscle spasm or cramp is an involuntary contraction of a muscle. Muscle spasms occur suddenly, usually resolve quickly, and are often painful.
A muscle spasm is different than a muscle twitch. A muscle twitch or fasciculation is uncontrolled fine movement of a small segment of a larger muscle that can be seen under the skin.

What causes a muscle spasm?

There are a variety of causes of muscle spasms, and each cause depends on certain predisposing factors and anatomic areas of involvement.

Spasms can occur when a muscle is overused and tired, particularly if it is overstretched or if it has been held in the same position for a prolonged period of time. In effect, the muscle cell runs out of energy and fluid and becomes hyperexcitable and develops a forceful contraction. This spasm may involve part of a muscle, the whole muscle, or even adjacent muscles.

Overuse as a cause of skeletal muscle spasm is often seen in athletes who are doing strenuous exercise in a hot environment. This is also an occupational issue with construction workers, especially roofers. Usually, the spasms will occur in the large muscles that are being asked to do the work.


Painful?
memanggggg...

how did i get it?
aku meniarap lama main PSP (padan muka aku! muahahahaa)

so, my brilliant plans all went into the drain!
gone! kaput!

gambar tambahan

barisan pendekar...

 

muahahahahahaha!!

curious harith...

i see harith as an explorer and his brother hazeem as a creative thinker...

harith is more active, those who knew hazeem can imagine how hard it is to handle these two boys... but alhamdulillah, sometimes they are still bearable :D

one day i found harith in the kitchen -alone-

hmm???

buat apa tu?

ehehe...kantoi la pulak!

 ooo... korek lubang ya (muahahah!!!) - lubang bukan sebarang lubang, tu lubang masa wat treatment utk termites. dia curious nape lantai ni berlubang...

mari bersukan

last two weeks, hazeem had a mini sports day at his daycare centre. we went there to support him. it was a great day but was quite hot.

kids getting ready to recite doa and their school songs

well...budak2 tu malu2 so we only heard sepoi2 bahasa of the doas and the songs... eheheh

me and iza airina, old classmate during our ALevels days

(nape harith menjeling aunty iza tu??)

hazeem sibuk nak pakai topi askar dia :D

sing and jump for joy!

anak sulung iza, he is going into std 1 next year. good luck, iza!

hazeem dah mula menyakat kawan2

abis dah tahun ni nyer class...alhamdulillah

dinner company suamiku :D

aku menyibukkan diri ke company dinner suamiku :-p
tema Blockbuster Night dan blongos nye group kena PGL (Puteri Gunung Ledang). memula aku ingat nak berkemban, tapi memikirkan aku tak sempat nak diet, maka hajat aku berkubur (wakakakakaa!!!) -for greater goods!

jgn memain, laki aku lepas tu pakai tanjak, berkeris and bercapal. aku lak berterompah, errr... aiseh lupa lak nak amik gambar full :-) hmm... nampak tak bunga sekuntum kat kepala??

aku enjoy malam tu, mostly because i was seated with a group of sporting people...

solat hajat

semalam aku terjebak mendengar ceramah (bukan kat masjid tapi cd yg dipasang oleh apak ku)... ceramah tu oleh ustaz terengganu. so, bahasa penyampaiannya tiada lain dan tidak bukan melainkan bahasa terengganu.

lepas beberapa minit mendengar aku terasa best pulak. point ustaz tu stret je, ada siap illustrasi contoh2 lagi...

satu point pasal solat hajat ni, kita boleh meminta hajat pada Allah kat mana2 sahaja and bila2 sahaja yg kita nak... kalau nak main doa je boleh gak tapi yg paling afdal kita solat la. and solat tu mudah, takde ayat2 specific kena baca, ikut tahap kelas agama masing2 la :D

lepas tu, kalau nak wat solat hajat, biar le hajat tu besar skit... kalau setakat nak berhajat makan sup tulang malam nanti, itu baiklah kita doa dlm hati je :D solat hajat ni utk kes2 cthnya nak exam, kita nak result bagus...kalau cenggitu, jgn lupa supaya Allah memberkati pulak ilmu kita, kot dpt 18A nanti besar jadi hackers ke makan rasuah ke pembuat bom ke tak ke haru je...

lepas tu kena la lojik, contohnya, mintak supaya dpt 18A ataupun lulus dgn cemerlang, tapi buku sekadar selak 2-3mukasurat je baik le takyah. ini bukan magik.

lagi satu yg tertarik perhatian aku, dipenghujung sesi tu, ada sesi soal jawab. ada yg bagi soklan bertulis,

(ditranslate dari bahasa 'ganu)
"saya suka termenung di tingkap rumah setiap hari. dan hobi sampingan saya, saya suka meludah pada ayam2 yg lalu didepan rumah (WTF?). kadang2 kena kepala ayam kadang2 saya miss. apa kah saya berdosa?"

ustaz tu cakap la, ada gak ya soklan cenggini.. (muahahahha!!)
mula2 skali, takde lak nas yg sebut exactly apa balasan kalau kita ludah kepala ayam... tapi nabi muhammad saw pun menghormati binatang, even dia nak sembelih binatang utk makan, nabi akan asah pisau tu secara sembunyi2. bukan cam org sekarang, dah le asah pisau depan lembu tu, siap ckap lagi, 'siap la ko lembu'... tak elok la gitu.

kalau dipikir2 kan balik, mamat tu takde keje ke duk termenung sambil meludah ayam. adakah itu sesi terapi beliau? atau ada pertandingan meludah ayam?


manusia.... manusia...

why we (esp ladies) love to read romantic books/ watch romantic movies/ listen to romantic songs?

why?

i do not know about others but for me, i like them cos they are able to provide me a feelings which i found it difficult to get from the 'real world'... muahahahaha!!!

i dont mind when the reality hits back once the movie/book/song is over... cos it was the short moment that matters.

now is the craze for twilight saga - and i am one of the twilight maniacs!
why?
who wouldnt want to be Bella?? being pursued by 2 most unimaginably attractive characters - the ever charming and gentleman Edward and also... the ever so edgy-rugged-badboy but loving Jacob. both care, love, ever so protective over head-over-heel-Bella... i dont think the bloodsucking mosquitoes could get near Bella when Edward is near or no sharp-teeth animal would dare to touch her when Jacob is there... huhuhhu...

who would resist the adrenaline rush when a vampire carry you on his back (romantically) on a 'fast ride' across the country...
or who would get the chance to be saved from drowning by the werewolf? a topless werewolf (eheehhe)


well, reality check:

whenever you complaint about nyamuk, you end up spraying the ridsect on your own in the middle of the night (or he would do it once a while... is it becos he just want you to shut up?)

i dont even wanna think about any sharp tooth animal - he will be the first one to run away (ahahaha- ye ke??)

carry you on his back?? carry you? on his back??? wanna talk about 'heavy' here?

save you from drowning? in my case, i think i would be save cos i am not a good swimmer and he is :D (sorry, dear - it is your job)


so, why we love romantic stuff again?

i think simply because those around us are not romantic enough... kuangkuangkuang...

where can i get?

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mana nak dpt baju kebaya labuh?

(btw, ada org suh aku carik dlm lemari nenek ku, nenek ku tak pakai kebaya, dia pakai gaun muahahahah!!!)

...
mana aaa?

things u thought u wont hear until ur son atleast hit puberty

di rumah, anak2 aku mmg kaki kentut bersepah...

semlm, hazeem kentut depan aku, stret aku bgtau dia,
"hazeem, nanti mama kentut kat hazeem terus hazeem tercampak pegi rumah sebelah"

dia jawab
"mama ni, nanti hazeem kentut lagi mama tercampak pegi jauh sana" sambil memuncungkan mulut menunjukkan betapa jauh aku akan pegi

aku lawan balik
"nanti mama kentut hazeem tercampak sampai planet mars"

dia melawan lagi
"hazeem kentut besar sekali mama tercampak sampai kubur"


erk!!!


adakah dia paham? wakakakak aku hanya mampu gelak besar...

bubble bath

bubble bathe naked (muahahahahh!!!)

dont get me wrong, sabun mandi bukan GLO belakang tu aaa...

perempuan dan anak part II

untuk mengelakkan sebarang kekeliruan, post sebelum ini adalah post GENERAL

(ahakss!)

tiada kena mengena dengan hidup atau mati tapi if ada terasa... ampuuunnn :D:D

perempuan dan anak

kadang-kadang aku leh relate and sometimes aku tak paham...

ada sesetengah perempuan tak suka ada anak... apa lagi anak ramai


maybe dia pikir...
penat mengandungkan baby for 9 bulan
ada yg alahan, ada yg muntah, tak lalu makan, naik badan, panas yang amat, sakit belakang, mengantuk all the time, darah tinggi la... darah tak cukup la...

or
sakit and takut sebab kena hadap possiblity mati masa beranak
kengkadang baby breach, kena la emergency c-sect, sakit teramat ada yang sampai dekat sehari suntuk... ye la, sakit beranak is the 2nd lepas sakit nak mati - masya Allah...

or
boring and takut meroyan masa 44 hari pantang
dah la makan kena jaga, keluar takleh, jalan kena slow2, kena lak telan jamu yang tak sedap... kalau tak jaga badan kang laki carik lain (senang sungguh...)

or
penat melayan kerenah anak (if housewives - 24jam)
mana ada ibu yg tergamak biarkan anak meragam sorg2... mesti dia nak layan anak dia, merajuk ke, menangis ke, meragam ke... anak selalunya comes first. baju sendiri pun tak sempat beli, asyik beli anak punya je... (maybe itu pasal laki nampak org lain lagi menariks dari tgk bini kat umah - senang sunggoh...:D)

or
takut laki tinggalkan dia kat rumah utk jaga anak whilst diorg keluar enjoy ngan kengkawan
laki kengkadang ada je hal kat luar, nak jumpa kawan lama, nak main sukan utk sihat (abis bini tak payah bersukan? takkan sukan atas katil je kot??) nak release tension (abis bini tak payah release tension? takkan release tension atas katil ke kot??) - alasan, anak2 tak baik ngan dia... err... nak anak sesama, apasal bini je kena tanggung penat...

or
takut macam2 la
esp bila anak besar kurang ajar lak tu... memang ZASSS kena lempang je ;-p


tapi
aku pikir benda2 ni gak
..

PAHALA


bila melahirkan, isteri ni bersih dari segala dosa... tak ke best tu?!
mmg payah... tapi pikirkan pahala... insyaallah...