tatkala terasa semak

of late ni aku seringkali terasa semak dan serabut dan boring dan bosan termasukla menyampah.... dengan apa? dengan macam2...

tadi aku ada baca satu blog ni, dia citer pasal zaman2 dia bercinta, i mean...dia sebut la skit2... so aku pun teringat time aku bercinta. jadi, elok la aku citer sikit untuk mengurangkan sakit hati dan serabut dan semak dan boring aku ni.... (hopefully)

aku tak ramai boyfriend... org minat kat aku ramai le (perghh...perasan...) tapi tak seramai orang yang aku minat ahhaha---- termasuk la abg Jordan dari NKOTB, abg Johnny dalam 21 Jump Street, dan jugak abg Beast tapi dia dah terminat kat Beauty la plak...

(owh, btw...koyong, if you are reading this, semalam ada Beauty n the Beast ehehhe)

nape aku x ramai boyfriend? takmau ke? aku rasa kalau dilayan hormon teenage masa tu, mmg la ramai tp mak bapak aku dulu macam polis, kdg2 macam askar pun ye gak. diorg masukkan aku sekolah semua perempuan. sampaikan lepas dpt result SRP, aku nak la try MRSM.tapi mak aku kata kalau nak asrama penuh, sila la apply STF ke TKC ke...dan disebabkan mood rebelious aku maka aku sambung je kat sekolah lama ku...kuakuakua... (aku x apply memana pun)

ok, berbalik kepada cerita masa bercinta, of cos la masa bercinta ngan mr hubby, masa tu kitorg dedua tidak la berduit nau. wpun dikalangan kengkawan, aku ngan dia ni kira dtg from family yg berduit, tp diorg tak tau family kitorg juga lah antara parents yg cukup 'cermat' pasal duit -hehehhe... so kami survive dengan duit loan je, masa tu sebulan RM220 (kan?). dia MARA and aku JPA.

memula tu kami kuar pun naik bas je. masa tu tak heran naik bas. kalau duit tak cukup jalan kaki la. kalau jauh skit naik komuter. kalau jauh lagi (iaitu from shah alam to KL) kami naik bas, murah murah.

penah skali tu, laki aku merajuk (takyah aku cerita kenapa sbb nanti akan jadi bahan lawak eheheh...), dia suh aku naik teksi from sunway piramid, dia jalan kaki nak gi komuter. aku kejar dia (siap hujan renyai2 masa tu ok...) bukan apa, risau lak aku sbb dia tak penah berkelakuan aneh begitu. tapi halfway aku kejar dia, dia still buat kes sedar tak sedar dan meng-ignore aku, lalu aku tahan teksi dan tunggu dia di komuter. hahahah!!! dia sampai kat komuter station, dah penat agaknya, baru dia nak bercerita nape dia tiba2 syahdu membawa diri hahahah!!!

lepas tu, dia dah mewah skit sbb parents dia kasik dia kereta Suzuki Jimny. tapi aku takde merasa sgt pun. aku stil naik bas. sebab dia nak bawak bebudak bilik dia naik kereta utk ke kelas. aku ni kira taraf girlfren je, so sila la naik bas. rugi kalau kemudahan uni kita tak guna :-p

kalau aku naik pun, duit minyak tong-tong (wakakaka!!!) almaklum la...duit MARA ciput je. kalau x tong-tong, kang nak makan lak xde duit.

tempat2 biasa bas stand klang (sampai skrg aku xtau nape nama dia bas stand KLANG padahal location bukan kat klang pun. pastu of cos, stesen2 komuter esp kat Subang and kat area Sogo nuh. so, tempat2 lepak tiada lain melainkan SOGO, dan Subang Parade. kalau nak kelas skit Sunway Piramid. hahaha.... nostalgia.

area shah alam tu takat PKNS cukup le utk makan2. tasik shah alam?? jgn buat hal, kang drpd takde apa2 kang ada lak apa2 kang.... wat naya je...jadik sepjg aku di PPP, aku hanya ke tasik shah alam utk celebret birthday kawan dia A&W. dan sekali lagi untuk hari sukan air ITM :D lain mmg aku hindarkan.

lepas shah alam, kami bawak diri, aku stay kat shah alam. kawan tu memula ke segamat lepas tu melaka, dua2 ITM. masa tu mmg dugaan dia kasik aku berat. perghhh...ikutkan hati aku mmg tak berbaloi aku bersabar, tapi kalau dah jodoh tak ke mana.

aku start keje, dia still belajar (rajin tul...)

pastu, nenek kelantan aku dah hint2 ada org duk tanya aku. biasa la org kelantan mmg suka match make kan org2 bujang ni.tu aku push boyfren aku suh masuk meminang or u better hit the road je.

dalam push2 tu, since dia acuh tak acuh, aku pun buat la istikharah. and without my knowledge, dia pun wat gak (aikkk...dia pun was2 ngan aku ke???) alhamdulillah, duit JPA and MARA kami tak sesia bila Allah kasik petunjukNya. petunjuk apa? panjang lak aku nak cerita tapi cukup aku cakap memang Allah tu Maha Besar. 

so, skrg kami dah ber-anak 2 nak masuk 3. hopefully berkekalan hingga akhir hayat (and hopefully hayat tu panjang le....)

amin.....

i (am sure) could not ask for more

Lying here with you,
Listening to the rain,
Smiling just to see,
The smile upon your face,
These are the moments,
I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments,
I'll remember all my life,
I found all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.
Looking in your eyes,
Seeing all I need,
Everything you are,
Is everything to me,
These are the moments,
I know heaven must exist,
These are the moments,
I know all I need is this,
I have all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.

I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I have's come true,
Yeah right here in this moment,
Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, Here with me. . .

These are the moments,
I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments,
I'll remember all my life,
I've got all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more. . .

I could not ask for more than the love you give me,
Cause it's all I've waited for . . .
And I could not ask for more,
I could not ask for more.

dear,

u may not be perfect, but so do i
u may have hurt my feelings once in a while, but i know u tried harder to please me
i have no regrets choosing u
and i hope u feel the same way too...

it is not because it's your birthday that i say i love you, cos i love u everyday, everyway
but it is your special day (which was yesterday --ehehhe...)
and this is the most affordable way and the most sincere way i could express my feelings.

so, happy birthday and enjoy this song...

age is just another number....

... another number which basically dictates who you are hahaha!!!

it IS another number, but if you are not aging appropriately, that would be a story, right?

i remember i once went to a club for dinner, and i saw a lady in her 40's (i think) and she was sitting in a corner, sitting up straight, dressing very gracefully in a light coloured blouse and a long skirt. hair was neatly tied in a bun (kita panggil sanggul) and she talks in a very well-mannered way. truthfully, aku kagum tgk dia, at that time aku still in my early 20's.so she was practically like an aunty. but she aged gracefully. tak payah dressing bizarrely to look young, or acting mcm semacam... ehehhe...

haishhh... merepeks pulak dah.

actually this is a special post aku nak wish Mr Blongos aka hubby --- happy birthday! yang ke .... errk...34 eh?

muda lagi tu.
still lots of time to get rich, get a good house or atleast a place we could call home sweet home.
still young to do lots of things

so,
happy birthday
may Allah bless you di dunia dan akhirat...
sekarang pun Allah bless you with US ---HAHAHAHH!!!

(well, it is not easy to write this post with Hazeem and Harith menjerit2 berebut magic colour and the 'dedicated' maid vacuming the house ---which god knows when she will complete it)

Happy birthday again,
from your own little versions of Calvin & Hobbes

and from me...




been in love with you, still love you and will always love you --- despite all the discrepancies we had :D that's what makes our world go round and round and round and round......

zzztttttt!!!!

the not best yesterday

aku tau topik aku hari ni broken grammar. tapi it really explains semalam ku yang tak best.
aku ingatkan panas hingga ke petang, tapi guruh berdentum di waktu asar walaupun hujan tak de sangat pun.

it was the same with my feelings....

ok, meh la aku citer apa aktiviti aku semalam.
pepagi lagi...seperti biasa aku bangun lambat.plus, i had a very tiring saturday and i slept at 2am on malam sabtu tu. well, everybody was having a WELL-FULLY-UTILISED saturday, i guess and me, plus all the emotional baggage --- lagi la penat weh!

so, around lunch semalam, aku satu family and adik ipar menuju ke KLCC. aku suka, bukan sebab dah lama aku tak ke KLCC, aku baru gi meeting biz ngan kawan last week. tapi sebab aku gi husband, so ada can aku meronda2 kejap. i need a break anyway from my normal days.

masa sampai kat KLCC aku tgk ramaaaai orang (seperti biasa....duhh...). and aku nampak ada byk sale esp parkson siap ada additional sale utk bonuslink holder. isetan pun ada.

aku bukan ada duit pun. tapi bila ronda2 cuci mata tu, dpt la gak berangan kejap.

hubby had to go to office for awhile, sbb dia tak abis2 pindah opis lagi. aku malas nak tanya banyak. aku bawak anak2 gi lepak kat event room kat children's department in isetan. harith baru bangun tido, hazeem excited building houses dengan mega blocks.

whilst in the event room, hazeem dpt kawan baru, a chinese boy. budak tu pun suka hazeem, he was a bit younger than hazeem but he likes hazeem sebab hazeem duk buat lawak ngan dia. harith seperti biasa, prefers to play on his own. wpun kadang2 dia menyibuk bila heran tgk budak cina tu mengekek2 gelak bila hazeem buat lawak.

the boy was a bit of a bully gak, main agak ganas. and dia x suka harith sebab harith muka stone. tapi, bila dia halau harith main jejauh, hazeem ckp la, eh, that is my brother la... so dia takleh nak halau harith sesangat.

pastu dtg lak satu budak arab. lagi kecik dari budak cina tu. (international sungguh bilik mainan tuh). sebelum tu ada gak budak2 philippine kot...tapi those girls sekadar main syok sendiri pastu kena balik dah.

haaa...yang budak arab tu, dia pun nak join hazeem n budak cina tu, tapi seperti biasa, budak cina tu cuba menghalau dia main jejauh. haaa... ini part best, budak cina tu tolak dia, dia tak heran. dia CUCUK mata budak cina tu! hazeem ternganga ---- hahahaha!!!

pastu si cina tu cuba lawan balik, mat arab tu tolak dia sampai terantuk kat dinding. pastu diorg wrestling hahahah!!! yes, aku sekadar mampu duk gelak je. mak masing2 cuba nak meleraikan. dan aku hanya mampu duk gelak. dan hazeem ternganga...
last2 budak cina tu menangis kat mak dia, budak arab tu tersengih2 ehehe...aduyaiii....

well, masa incident tu, macam2 lagi jadi sebenarnya, tapi takyah la aku citer takut malu lak mak salah sorg budak tu. aku mmg sah2 tak berguna la kat situ. belakang and bontot dah sengal2 kebas sebab lama gile duduk atas kerusi cinoneeet je.

pastu, selepas lama nauuuu kat situ, laki aku call kata dia dah selesai. suh aku tunggu kat maybank. aikkk??? dah nak balik ke? atleast dtg la kat isetan tu tolong aku bwk budak2 yg dah hyper tapi kepenatan ni. tapi, idak. dia siap naik suara suh aku tunggu dekat ngan escalator depan maybank. belakang dah sakit, bontot dah kebas, kaki dah cramp, aku sumbat henfon dalam bag, suruh hazeem tolak stroller. aku dukung harith. lift isetan dah macam setan je slow. harith dah meraung2 atas dukung nak turun. perut aku makin senak.

lepas 5minit, aku drag budak2 ni naik lift kat luar. harith nak jalan sendiri. hazeem ngan acara dia menolak stroller dari sisi, abis langgar semua org. aku dah macam orang gila, menjerit2 panggil harith sebab dia dah macam kambing kena lepas, aku takut dia ilang or dilanggar org sebab dia tecit and org sgt ramai. so aku kejar dia, and hazeem kejar aku. mata aku mcm juling sebab kejap nak tgk harith lari ke mana and at the same time nak suh hazeem keep up ngan aku. hazeem lak macam org kena dadah... meleret je sorang2.

perghhh...hebat!

sampai kat kereta aku rasa cam nak nangis je sbb perut aku bukan setakat cramp, tapi sakit yang amat...

kat sapa aku nak mencarut? aku pun tak tau tapi aku rasa mcm nak mencarut!

sale??? WTF...aku malas nak cakap...

aku give up, give up looking for something to do to make me happy. mmg aku give up!
lantak la weh. biar hidup aku miserable sebab if aku ada something yg aku terasa nak buat, sure takleh. sure ada benda yg menghalang. so, to hell with everything. i dont need to be happy to continue livng. tak payaaaaah....

so, that was my not best yesterday.


-the end-

believe it or not

my situation now is dalam keadaan percaya atau tidak...

alhamdulillah, new venture aku n a fren dah berjalan dan so far, sambutan menggalakkan. no doubt, member aku tu have very high confidence level and dicampur tabiat aku yg suka merekod dan melaraskan urusan2 remeh temeh, so our collaboration is a success. but of course, the journey has just begun... cewah, macam tajuk lagu lak. so journey kami masih jauh. ntah apa nak jadi pun, hanya allah yang tahu and hopefully semua berjalan lancar as we prayed for.

yang penting berkat :-)

tiba2 aku teringat satu lagu ni, dia mcm antara percaya dgn tidak bahawasanya dia boleh terbang and has some sort of superhero power. aku tak penah tgk tv series tu but from the song aku dah boleh imagine citer tu sure citer kelakar, and true enough...aku tgk video clip pun cukup kelakar...ahahahah!!!

sama situasi cam aku yang masih lagi....

believe it or not i am walking on air
i never thought i could feel so free
flying away on a wing and a prayer
who could it be? believe it or not it's just me... :D:D:D'

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why children think they can do anything?

budak2, pada pandangan aku, are still pure. mind still clear from anasir2 or simptom2 'Tak Boleh'.

hazeem:  mama, nape kita lom ada rumah sendiri?
mama:  duit belum cukup la, hazeem. sebab tu hazeem tak boleh membazir, tolong mama simpan duit.
hazeem:  (diam, seraya faham point aku)
.
.
hazeem:  mama, hazeem rasa tak lama lagi dah boleh beli rumah sendiri la...
mama:  camne pulak? duit mana cukup lagi....
hazeem:  tu dalam tabung hazeem --   hari2 hazeem letak duit, tak lama lagi cukup la

(hahahah... kelakar pun ada, kesian pun ada)

tapi aku kagum, budak2 ni mind dia plain and simple. semua boleh, just kena cari jalan je.

kenapa kita, iaitu org tua, takleh jadi camtu?

sebab kita dah tempuh macam2 rejection dalam hidup. membuatkan setiap perkara yg comes into consideration, kita sure carik jalan utk point 'tak boleh'

even kalau kita bersungguh2 cakap pada diri kita, 'i can' tapi.... ada lak org sekeliling yg tolong cakap --- mana boleh ni...

org cina boleh la, melayu susah
dia boleh la...
ni dah ramai org buat, ko mana boleh buat...
apa ko ingat ko terer...


(hahahah)

dan macam2 lagi.

so, atuk aku pesan...kalau kita nak buat apa2, jgn citer kat sesapa pun. sampai projek kita selesai. kalau tak susah nanti. family pun kadang2 jadi batu penghalang no. 1 --- ini kalau berlaku mmg susah nak overcome, sebab most of us, we expect the most from family.

so....

ingat, kalau nak buat apa2, diam2 suda....